Talking to anyone, let alone strangers, about the trial and error of researching vulnerability is scary. At the same time, I’ve always thought it would be fun to write about my experiences because they are so messy and wonderful. I actually thought my first release would be about the treasure trove of wild dating stories I have, but stay tuned… I’m sure some stories will debut in my “boundaries” posts. #iykyk The point is, some of the best things in life make us feel both scared and excited.
The amazing Glennon Doyle and her family started using the word “scited” to explain this feeling. It’s half scared, half excited.
Sharing my life stories is incredibly vulnerable, and yet I’ve learned that some of the most beautiful moments in life come from vulnerability. The best way to put how I feel all the time now is scited. It’s a great feeling, and there’s so much power in it. If something doesn’t scare you at least a little bit, is it worth doing?
Some of the scariest situations have the greatest rewards! I guess one of the experiences that scared me most was ending a long-time friendship. I knew the friendship didn’t serve me for years, and when I was ready to face my fear, I felt excited. As soon as we had the hard conversation, I felt so free. It’s the excitement that reminds us why and gets us to the other side.
You have to believe that it’s worth it. The journey from scared to excited always passes through vulnerability. If that involves ending a relationship or leaving a job, it starts with being aware of what you truly desire as the outcome and making a choice to honor yourself. You may feel conflicted about speaking your truth, and I promise that will wear off once the excitement of honoring yourself kicks in.
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